wheres all my props en comments??

         mm.. oh well. let`s see.. alot happened this passed week. everything me en 730 had is all officially over.. i at least wanted to be friends with him.. well wutever. onto another subject. 
i never got a call back from you two.. you knoe who you are.. 30 minutes my butt. haha. i really need to talk to both of you.. maaan. are you going to call today? =/ grr. umm. i`m happy. but then i`m sad. aw. how lame.. i`m scared too. only derek knows why. but you knoe that`s kinda messed what you did.. but i eint even gonna trip because it`s your life.. but it kinda ruined wut we could have had. i`m kinda bummed out.. i was juss starting to like him too. aww.. wutever.. i knoe huh jan.. i guess it IS the guys i pick. =(  boo hoo.. i should turn lesbian. hahaha.. yah rite. i guess there are alot of other guys out there for me.. i hope?

         i always have bad luck with guys.. now i`m starting to think i`m doing something wrong.. what is it though? gosh.. if someone would let me knoe.. then it would help me out tremendously. haha. i think i`ve been hurt by guys too many times that it doesn`t really even matter enimore.. it`s juss a waste of my time to even think about being with one.

         i juss wish there was the right guy for me somewhere out there.. who`ll love me for me.. and love me the same way i love him.. who doesn`t go by bros b4 hoes.. and someone i can trust.. that`s all i want. someone to make me happy.. vise versa. but that`s soo freakin` hard to find.. not to say that i need a guy?! don`t get me wrong.. i`m independent. i`m coo flyin` solo.. but that would freakin` be boring! i would have no excitement  in my life.. haha.. not necessarily but..  i wouldn`t be coming home anticipating on that special phone call.. or i wouldn`t be able to tell that special someone how much i love them.. and do the sweet things that i love to do.. i want my boyfriend to be not only my lover.. but my best friend too. you know?

         blah.. awno. i guess it`s cool being single cuz you don`t have to worry about flirting with other people and yah knoe.. stuff like that.. i hope he`s doing okay. even though we`re not together.. not even friends.. i juss want to let you knoe i`m sorry for what i`ve put you through in the past.. and for the way i was acting.. umm.. yeah. i don`t think i have anything else to say.. i`m gonna go babysit my little cousins now. i`ll write more later.. bye.

today was freakin` FUN!! haha.. it was sooo cool.. after school.. umm.. we all went to lolitas.. yumm.. kinda had a lil drama there.. but wutever.. i didnt let it ruin my day so yeah.. mm.. i got a california burrito. and stuff.. i carved my initials in JONAH`s arm!! haha.. he still remembers what it stands for!!! woo hoo! he even remembers my berfday too! haha.. woah.. dont I feel special! hehe.. well after that.. we went to jans house.. i got ticcled like half the time!!! haha.. by JONAH AND ANDREW hehe. maaaan.. i should have never told them that i hated being ticcled.. hahah. it`s ALL GOOD THO..
i got my pleasure hahahahahha.. BY JONAH.. haa, he massaged my FEET! and yah knoe.. deng that felt GOOOOoOod.. haa. yeah.. after that.. i guess i was TRYiNG to fall asleep.. and i did! until THEY (andrew and jonah) woke me up by TICCLiNG ME AGAIN!! ahh.. geez. haha. it was fun.. but i`m tired now.. too much to talk about.. i`m gonna go now.. nite guys.

TO MY BEST FRIEND...

YOU SED YOU`D ALWAYS BE MY FRIEND.
YOU SED YOU`D ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME, THROUGH THE GOOD AND THE BAD.
YOU PROMISED. I LOST YOU ONCE.. AND I CANT EVER GET THAT LOVE BACC..
BUT I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU AGAIN.. LOSE OUR FRIENDSHIP..
YOU MEAN PRACTICALLY THE WORLD TO ME, EVEN THOUGH WE ARENT TOGETHER ANYM0RE.. I STILL CARE FOR YOU. AND IM SORRY if you EVER DOUBTED THAT.. ALL I WANT IS YOUR FRIENDSHIP BACC.. BUT IF NOT.. I JUSS WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY..

OUR CODE::: [[your zippers down]]

hehhehe...

HAPPiE DADDiES DAY!!

       aww.. no more school! rite when it was gettin FUN too! haa.. all the COOL people wore jerseys on friday! haha.. [me, emm, keith, steven, mike, ned, chris, and.. umm.. yeh] it was tiite.. we all took pics. it was really sad..

       after school.. i went to yves`s house.. we went to pechanga to go eat out for her momma`s berfday.. HAPPY BERFDAY AUNTiE! hehe. then we went to the mall.. saw some CLiPPER JERSEYS!! woo woo! `TRiPLE E'  is gon' take PiCS! hehe.. yeah.. then we went to the lil kiccbacc/party. it was coo.. yup. it was goin aiite til some FOO crashed it.. damn.. then some other fuccer pissed me off.. ahh.. don`t know when the fucc to stop. mm.. met this one guy. flip en hawaiian.. preddie cute.. but he juss turned 14.. =/ that was gay.

       mario let me DRiVE his carrr.. woo woo.. that was fun. crashed at emms pad.. went home the next morning.. it was fun.. i`ve been too lazy to update this ugly thing.. my grandpa is having bypass surgery. please god, watch over him. umm.. lets see wut else.. ohh.. i went to.. sd yesterday.. to see my best friend.. jed. =) yeah.. we went to eastlakes thing.. i saw my homegirl TRiNA there!! aww.. so nice to see you buddie!! hahaha. umm.. today.. i went to go see 2fast2furious with my family.. it was my second time seeing it.. dammn.. paul walker is FREAKiN HOT!!! ahh... fine ass white boy. hahahah.. yeah.. then we ate at this thai place.. after that.. i went to longs to get my pics developed. en then now.. it`s supposed to be done.. at 5:15.. en it`s almost 5:20.. so i`m out.. i`ll put them online later.. mmkae.. bye.


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friday: lass day of school took pics with the COOL people wit jerseys on. i was sad.
went to the party. it was coo. some foo pissed me off. slept at emms pad.

sat: fought with the parentals, emotional day.. went to sd. saw couple of' homies. chilled.. had a lil bit of fun.. jan, jon, en berdo knows.. hahaha.. =)

sunday: (today) mm.. watched 2fast2furious for the second time, but with the fam. ate at this thai place.. yumm.. went to the mall.. got a message on my cell from STEVEN. heh. called him bacc. so i talked to him, mike, keith, and eric for couple hours (w/yves). took a shower.. then talked to steven again. then i`m here.. updating this.. mm.. "you can`t resist this" hahah.. watch steven.. you knoe you gonna call..

tomorrow: sd.. visit my grandpa in la jolla. (he`s gettin` bypass surgery) thanks eric for prayin` fo him. please god. watch over him. umm.. stayin in sd.. for a week.. fucc.. i wanna stay.. but then i wanna go.. i`ll see them everyday.. tho.. it`s otay.. i`ll jes go to sd.. en see if HE calls.. guh`nite.

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